Family BlissLogs

Weekends fly by way too fast don’t they? I know it’s only Saturday morning, but the thought that the weekend ends tomorrow is fairly depressing. I thought I’d post an update here for my 2 readers as to what me and the boys will be up to this weekend.

Last night was junk food and movie night. After I picked them up from camp, we came straight home for the festivities. They were already hungry so I let them start their appetizer of Dorito’s. While they were eating those, I warmed up the second course by microwaving some nacho cheese for some nachos. They were pretty hesitant to try it as they were afraid it would be too spicy. Luckily, I had the solution to that; dip the tortillas in some sour cream first then into the cheese. They seemed to really like that as we went through the first bowl of cheese in nothing flat. While bowl number 2 of the cheese was warming, I started the oven to get the pizza rolls going. We started to get full of the nachos right about the time the pizza rolls were done so we moved on to the 3rd course. I did mention that this was a movie night too right; well, we started off by finishing The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian; which we had started watching earlier in the week. After that movie was over, we watched Snow Buddies, which was more entertaining than I expected. After Snow buddies, they wanted to watch Twilight again. Somewhere in the middle of Snow Buddies, we moved on the the 4th and final course of ice cream. I figured they couldn’t possibly eat too much more so I gave each of them only 1 scoop. Boy was I wrong. They had that scoop gone before I got back to the couch with my bowl. The second bowl of ice cream started to take its toll on my stomach so I made that be the last course of dinner for the night. We made it about half way through Twilight before they got tired and were ready for bed. Maybe we will finish it tonight.

Todays plans are kind of a hodge podge. I need to mow the lawn so i hope to get that out of the way about 9:30am. I was ready a couple hours ago, but I’m sure the neighbors wouldn’t appreciate the lawn mower at 5am. Parker has been asking me to take him out to eat at Hooters for a week now, so today will probably be the day. I’ve got a list of things I need to pick up at WalMart, so we’ll swing by there after lunch. Parker and Casey still have some report card money burning a hole in their pocket, so a trip to Toys R Us may be in order for today as well. All that should fill up today, but if there is still time and the weather holds out, I may try to squeeze in a bike ride to the park. That reminds me, I still need to find a brake solution for Parker’s bike. There are no foot brakes and he’s not quite big/strong enough to properly use the hand brakes. I worry about him relying on putting his feet on the ground to slow down.

Tomorrow is the day I’m really looking forward to, but it is all dependent on there being no rain. I haven’t told the boys my plans for tomorrow yet in case the rain does come and we don’t get to go. The TT races are coming to Peoria this weekend and should be a blast. I’ve decided to not tell them the plan until we are pulling into the track and they see what is going on. I hope they like the surprise. They both enjoy watching the motorcycle races on TV. I just hope they don’t decide to participate in these races when they get older, I would be too worried that they would get injured. I’m really looking forward to this as I haven’t been to these races in about 10 years.

That should be a pretty full weekend, I hope we are able to do it all. I’m sure Monday will be here all too quickly.

After 7 years and 8 months of marriage, it will be coming to an end in about 1 more month. According to my wife, it was completely over back in February; but will not be over till the judge signs the papers next month. Speaking of the divorce papers, we have agreed on everything and have each signed the papers at the lawyers office. I wanted to fight for more time with the kids, but realized that the only thing that would accomplish would be to make us both spend more money on lawyers. I most likely wouldn’t have gotten any more time than what she proposed and any lawyer she got would probably convinced her to get more money out of me. As far as divorces go, I suppose I’m lucky in that I won’t be paying any weekly child support or alimony.

My son asked me tonight why I was still wearing my wedding ring. My answer was that I was still married and would wear it on that finger till I wasn’t married any more. At this point, I don’t know that I’ll be ready to take it off even when the divorce is final. I’m considering wearing it on my right hand till I’m ready to remove it. I know that at this point I should move on and just remove it, but that infinity symbol on it still means forever to me. I may get over her at some point and allow myself to move on, but I am just not there yet and don’t know when I will be. I’ve had a few people tell me that I need to see a counselor, Brandy included. I did for a little while, but the person I was talking to wanted to focus on ways to “save” the marriage, which is exactly what I wanted to hear. Once Brandy convinced me that even if I changed everything about me and my life in a manner that would make her happier, the marriage was still over; I stopped speaking to the counselor. No point in talking about ways to save the marriage when the other person has no ambition to do so and is probably dating someone else already.

Normally, it would be a no brainer to pick between a noisy house or a quiet house. Most of you would pick the quiet house. I myself would have taken that option 4 months ago, but oh how times have changed. I’ve had the house to myself since Wednesday morning and the quietness was deafening. I spent a lot of time doing things around the house, but I didn’t realize how unhappy I was until I picked up my kids tonight. As soon as we got home, they both went off to play together. I didn’t join them, but I could hear them talking to each other and playing together. It was then that I realized that I was smiling for the first time all weekend. They went on playing and were running through the house; the racket they were making was therapeutic. It would have been the first time since Wednesday that I smiled, but I was able to see the boys Thursday and Friday. They had an awards ceremony at school on Thursday that I attended and Brandy brought them over Friday night so she could get more stuff from the house. I did smile both those times. Even now, the house is quiet; but I still have a smile on my face. I could walk upstairs at any point and just watch them sleep; which I may do a little later. So, I guess what I’m trying to say is that I would now pick a noisy house any time. Well, I’m rambling and I realize that I may not be making much sense in this post, so I think I will sign off.

Another update on my divorce proceedings coming soon.